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I just need closure.

When I’m finally alone, I’m vulnerable to myself

My mask is no longer needed, therefore my emotions can haunt me

I’m scared if I try to get up too fast I’ll just get pushed down harder

I can’t tell how I screwed up

Maybe it was how I texted back too quick,

Told you about too much of my scars,

Or questioned everything I did for you

I’m sorry if my unpredictability scared you

And how when you’re talking to me, you’re talking to 2 different people

I can’t get my mind off the things we never got to do

I know there’s not going to be a person like you in my life again

And I’ll be ready for the next time I can beat you in iMessage 8ball

And I’ll always still be willing to give you that necklace

Or listen to music on the curb of a Country Fair,

while I play piano on your hand

You were the person who change me to the person I wanted to be

And now I’ve felt myself slowly regress to the person I was before

Losing my meaning and my love

I’m scared of the future and myself again now that you’re gone.

I’m glad we tried,

but I still want to hit the reset button.

I just want to see you tomorrow.