to myself in the future (conclusion)

entered through a door, now leaving through a window

scared if I’ll find another heaven or a sedated hell

whatever it is, I know I can’t stay in here forever.

hey. for reference, there’s currently a few problems going on now.

maybe it’s all made up,

due to the insecurities in my head, or truly from the atmosphere I’m surrounded by

I’m not as darkly lit as I was from eras before, but I’m still shaded

caught between, once again, caring too much about how people perceive me

and scared that I’m not worthy enough in this world

I’m faced with looking at myself through time again.

I hope you’re doing well.

if you took the path of the Pegasus,

you’re happy right now, maybe in your 40’s

found peace and grew more in your soul than wealth

learned to love yourself so now you can love another

a little longer than a season this time, a woman for all ages

you finally have Artemis in your life, a child who you’ll raise well

you’ll no longer be scared you’re too flawed to be a parent or a husband.

if you took the path of the Dragon,

you’re probably pretending you’re happy, maybe in your late 20’s

drugged beyond belief, still caught in lies, insecurity, and a pathway to death soon

a large house filled with liquor cabinets and people during the night

but you made it, and you’ve finally captured the sound I’m looking for

a dream that we’ve been trying to catch for so long.

selling your soul doesn’t matter if you’ve accomplished your goal.

whatever you chose, I hope you’re happy.

I know both the voices in my mind wish for that, whether if it’s authentic or artificial .

I’m still conflicted and can’t predict where I’ll be, but that’s okay

you don’t need to tell me now, I know I need to figure out for myself

but every word you spoke to me as the sun burned meant the world.

I’ll see you in a few.