to every girl I’ll love later

I know I won’t be seeing you for awhile.

too much going on in my head, constant fights between myself

blinded by ego, lead by the artist; I need to rid it

I need to see the world again and have the love the reflect on my soul.

but I promise when the fight is over, I’ll run home to you.

I hope when I hold your hand, it’ll feel soft as clouds, yet hard as stone.

I hope when we kiss, my lips don’t taste like blood,

flowing down my body from my own mistakes.

I hope I can give you a world to see through with my eyes,

one that you can see as the paradise of heaven

but will challenge you like hell to be better

I hope you grow with me when I grow older,

and can deal and push me through my insecurities, chaos, and pain if I refuse to

I promise to distance myself if it takes a toll on you. you don’t deserve that.

I’ll love you until the day we separate.

even through the heartbreak, I promise I’ll live to walk

I’ll wish you well, and hold our memories close to my heart

I’ll never forget you or our love, stuck to my soul to keep carrying.

if you’re the one in the future,

I hope you’ll feel the way I do everyday of our lives.

we can rent an apartment in the city or eventually move out to the suburbs

I’ll write you a poem at every sunrise, a song every sunset

telling you the emotions you make me feel everyday.

hopefully you won’t find it stale after awhile.

I’ll treat you as the most important person of my life,

as well as our adopted daughter, named Artemis

one who we’ll teach to speak Chinese and any other language if you know one

I’m far from being a perfect parent, but I promise I’ll learn.

overall, thank you for loving me.

I’ll promise to love myself the way I’ll love you.