fears that I can’t say to you

I don’t think I’ve seen the moon shine this bright before.

maybe because this is the first time I haven’t heard your voice in the might.

I hope you’re seeing it.

a clearer image of darkness, yet silhouettes that cast fear and confusion

I see you around with unrecognizable faces

potential pilots, you as their carriage

away from your own world, into your new

you seem happy. and I hope that is so.

I would never take away a smile from your face, and you know that.

but here I am, now at my most vulnerable

scared of your absence, terrified of your behavior

more alone then I’ve ever been.

I’m scared.

I’m scared you’ll find someone else at your party and cheat on me.

I’m scared that I’ll be lost in your mind, only a faint memory

I’m scared that everything we said to each other will turn to nothing

just in the blink of the night.

maybe it’s inevitable.

maybe I just need to see you.

maybe I just need a kiss from you again.

maybe I’m too blinded by my own voices.

Without you, I only see myself as a silhouette now.