a girl I love now (janelle, pt. 4)

it’s not possible to say every thought that floats in my mind when I think of you.

so many wishes, thanks, and thoughts I want to say,

emotions indescribable that you touch my soul with.

I never thought someone like you could enter in my life.

someone whom I’ve spent every day waking up and falling asleep to,

someone who’s shoulder I fell asleep on while listening to frank ocean together,

and someone who I realized I love them while we kissed during sunset.

you’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever known.

not solely in a physical world, but as well with your soul

perspectives I never could see before until you showed me,

a spectrum more colorful than any canvas.

even though you doubt yourself, you say the most angelic words I’ve ever heard.

in you, I’ve seen all the things I’ve ever loved.

a reflection that speaks to my heart through its eyes,

an art form so gorgeous, more touching than anything I’ve ever seen,

and light that can shine during the darkest hours.

thank you for everything.

thank you for all the blessings you’ve given me, even just by holding my hand.

you’re everything I’ve wished to be, and more. I hope I can give you the same feeling.

I know to live isn’t always understandable,

full of complications, questions, and sacrifice

but even so, I found myself with no fear for the first time.

there’s so much love I want to give to you,

the way I’ve felt the love you’ve given to me

an aura so beautiful and enigmatic.

I love you. more than I have ever imagined.

forever and always.