the cauldron odyssey - year 4002

all I can remember were the tears that I saw dripping down my chin

and the shade of blood that made me think I was hallucinating

I can’t find the key for the door that leads outwards

the room is covered with paintings of fear

and voids filled with violent eyes staring at me

I think I understand them

and I think they understand me

more than anyone ever would

because nobody seems to ever do so

I feel I’m falling deeper into a hole of desperation

As the clock rings when I slam the windows

the corner still has my name labeled on it

and it awaits for me to return in pain

And I understand I’m guilty

Because in the end the angels’ smiles will turn to pain when they see my terrible eyes

Eyes that are filled with nothing

But tell the story of a broken soul

for some reason I feel bursts of pain around my body,

everytime I feel something

it’s as if it’s intended I shouldn’t take another step

or another breath

I’m holding my own heart in my hand

Knowing I could crush it if I wanted to, just like I did with everyone else

However, I accept there’s not really much left for me

to witness, to experience, to love

I don’t know if this is the peace I’ve been drawn towards

I still contemplate whether burning down the room will finally set me free

Or if I should yield to my defeat, understanding the hypothesis

oh.