June - The Voices of Lucifer

If only insecurities could be sealed tight forever I could finally smile

Unfortunately that wasn’t the case for me

The unhappiness and forethought was my inevitable demise

Yet something I knew was coming

If you trap someone alone in cage

With lights turned off, and ghosts circulating them

You’ll hear their screams by the third day

And by the sound of their pain, their nerves will pass onto yours

I wish they knew

And I wish could’ve told them

Yet when I tried, all I got was that I was different

And I wasn’t enough for them

That the way I acted was never what they held

I wish I could’ve changed my facade then

Just to be with them

Like I’ve always dreamed of

Before the nightmares came

Before the ghosts came

I’m still haunted by everything I could’ve had

I still am, yet I’m aware I should’ve believe there’s no strength left within me

That’s what people tell me, but I’m still scared I’ll become delusional

I was scared the demons will tighten the blind

that they’ve put in me since my death sentence

Yet during this time the voices got louder, and the chains became tighter on my wrists

I tried to tell them, I really did

And I’m scared my screams will be muffled again.