It was only one picture. One godamn picture and my heart dropped.

I nearly burst into tears by just a photo of you.

What is the monster you see of me or the monster I have become?

A thousand words race in my mind when I think of you now

I need something to drown out the screams

I can’t handle my own mind anymore

I’m so sorry.

The amount of pain I’ve caused on myself is unbearable

Sins have consumed me until there was no more flesh

I don’t know what’s more for me left,

and I don’t know how to pay my sentence.

I’m trapped. I don’t know what to do.

I’m scared, and I don’t know how to change back.

I would do anything to myself in order to have you in my life again.

I wish you could see me for how I was.

I don’t want to be the person I am anymore.