toxic environments/concert choir

I don’t understand you

I feel torn and conflicted on how’ve you treat me the past year

Because when it’s just us two,

it’s a place in my heart that makes me feel welcome and happy

But when you’re around them, I feel like you cover yourself with a mask

And complete change how you converse and interact with me

It just doesn’t fit right in my mind

You constantly follow and take the word for a kid with suppressed issues

That he slobbers over with his pride and ego

That also sends dick pics to every girl in his grade

And targets people to make himself feel better

You’re not the only one, however

There’s always the one who has more self esteem issues than all of us in that audi is

Who has the mindset of a 7th grader

And always targets others because usually the target is on him

Who you want to feel sorry for, yet you understand that he sometimes deserves his shit

The only person who has a good heart that targets me is genuinely ironic

I know that because they truly love and appreciate the people around them

I understand him, and I don’t mind him

I don’t know if I am or if it’s right to play the victim card

I just don’t feel safe in the environment anymore due to the immaturity

I don’t know if putting my emotions over teasing is too entitling it’s much to ask for

I wish I could explain the things I’m going through

In order for you to understand why this is dragging me down further

And making me more unhappy than I already am

Again, it’s just how I feel