Day 1 Without You (Mi Amada, Pt.2)

Hey, Aash.

For the first time in months, it’s been a whole day since I haven’t spoke to you.

It already feels like it’s been 5 years.

I hope you’re doing well.

Throughout today, sometimes I imagined what you’ve been doing.

Probably painting, reflecting, or watching Scooby Doo.

I hope you’re holding Rai for me.

There’s a few highs of today.

I ate dumplings for lunch. Then I went to clean my room and my studio. Barry says hi.

I watched Hum Aapke Hain Koun to remember you.

I got to the part where they started fighting over shoes.

I found it very enjoyable. I might sample the song.

After that, I ate dinner and told my parents about your goat curry story. They liked it.

I also released a song today with you as the album cover. I hope you don’t mind.

I wrote it while I was on the piano trying to get my feelings out.

I hope that someone tells you so you can listen to it.

It explains everything I’ve been feeling.

There’s only one low today, and that’s missing you.

I woke up today hoping yesterday was a bad dream.

I look back at our old Snapchat messages to remind myself you’re still with me.

I look back at our old videos and the photo on my wall to feel what I once felt.

Sometimes it feels like it’s hard to breathe,

And hard to think, as if everything is trying to cloud me.

I’ve never felt so lost and confused. I can’t imagine what you’re feeling.

I hope Sharon gives you her phone on Tuesday so you can talk to me.

And if God lets it, I hope your parents change their mind,

So I can finally feel you in my arms before I ask you to prom,

The same question I should’ve asked that at the art museum.

Whatever happens, I hope you reach out to the moon to hold my hand.

I love you. I always will.

Stay safe, mi amada,

-A.