a letter to the dragons - now that I’m alone again

please read.

I forgot what it feels like,

to be broken again, and to only see the dunes of an empty plane

scared while the snowflakes fall on my face,

ice that I haven’t felt since January

but I cannot resort back to who I was before.

I cannot go back to my dangerous masks of coping.

I cannot go back to drugs, alcohol, and using people,

and again, isolating myself with barriers so high,

just as I did before.

rather,

I just need you there,

just as someone I could either laugh, cry, or love with,

the things I know I need now than I did before

I need you all in my life to fall back on, now that things have changed

A pack of souls now I’m at my most vulnerable

And for them to help me.

If I lose myself,

I’d rather lose myself with a room of people I love.

I need to still find my way again,

but with the builders of a road that I can step forward on.

Thank you for always being there in the past.

Now, I need you all now more than ever.