The Epilogue - Un Año Después

Something about me is different now.

Maybe it’s because of the long hair I decided to grow out

That’s allowed me to look at a different person in the mirror every morning

Or, maybe it’s because now I finally have a woman and man that I can finally love,

that have now learned I’m no longer under any other shadows

They don’t completely understand my words, but they accept them.

Or, maybe it’s how I found the people and a girl I can cry, laugh, and love with

who will always hold my hand whenever I need one

Or, maybe it’s the confidence, faith, and forgiveness I’ve finally built for myself

Possibly through a simple touch of a piano, or words I’ve written down for my mind

Am I mature now? Maybe, or possibly less from a different perspective.

But I know I’ve finally fell in love with the world around me.

I’ve learned to dance in the void I’ve been scared of for so long,

And let go of the tears that always fell down my face

I no longer need to know what the/my purpose of being here is,

And let myself be who I want to or could possibly be

I’m still surrounded by my chaos, emotions, and subtle confusion

But how would one live without those?

Thank you to the people around me;

The angels I could love, and whom loved me back,

the devils that haunted me during my cries in the night,

And the ones who comforted and hurt me when I needed them the most.

Any part you’ve played, words cannot describe how thankful I am for all of it.

But most importantly, I think it’s important to say thank you to myself.

And if you love me, I’ll always love you back

And if you don’t, that’s okay.

I’ve learned to love myself, and that’s all the love I’ll ever need.

And with that, I’ve finally reached peace and to an end.