starpieces

forgive me of my self-loathing and pithiness.

here we go again,

neglected, refused, and looked down upon

all my close friends left, and so did my smiles.

here I am, at the lowest point from the peak

torn from my heart so my blood doesn’t pump anymore

unstable, so I break my own body so everything is equally broken.

self control is to learn self acceptance.

I’ve realized there’s no happy ending gifted for me.

no longer out of frustration or despair, only to a peaceful conclusion for myself

there couldn’t be one person in thousands of people that I could ever feel loved by.

I’ll always be unhappy and find another dead end

I’m flawed and abandoned for a reason, gone with the winds that brought me here.

I can only live with my own pain and keep moving.

but, one day.

one day I’ll learn to walk while I’m blinded by the blurry tears,

one day I’ll learn to find happiness where happiness cannot be found,

one day I’ll learn to understand there’s no love I can give to myself.