for you.

I’m lost when I look into your eyes

I still don’t know what I feel

And what I should feel

I think I truly want something with you

But I’m aware of all the chaos what would break if that happened

I’m afraid of what we could be

I don’t know if I’m good enough

I see my own demon looking back it me

It’s reminding me the sins I’ve committed

And about the sins I would commit with you

The most intoxicating fear is failing you

I know you deserve all the love in the world, there’s no doubt

I genuinely want to be the best boy in the world for you

But when I’m around you, even though it’s the most thrilling experience,

My heart drops when you smile

Screams of fear cloud my mind

I don’t know if I’ll be able to smile if I’m able to hold you in my arms.